"Best of Both Worlds"

“The best of both worlds”


It is said that woman make the world go round. It is A woman that keeps men at attention and now a days know that right spots to touch to make a women fantasize about being with their own kind (So I’ve heard). Now I’m no Lesbian but lets face it ladies no matter how much woman want to front like they would never or thought of experimenting with another woman or even a little curious about what could be on the outside of the wild and crazy sex box, I know the though has ran across their mines. I believe that every woman has thought but is too worried about what others think or how they will be portrayed… do you not know who you are? Nevertheless I’ve always wondered what all the damn hype is about and I still to this day I don’t understand my lesbian friends. I have to admit that women are a true art of beauty and I’m damn proud to be one. We have curves that are pleasing to the eyes (well some of us lol!) and tricks that make men hungry for that sweet taste and feeling that we store in side. Personally I love men. Besides the romance and love stuff I have to say that not thing can put it down like a sensual thick Popsicles that brings you chills from its lusting sensation. Masturbation isn’t even enough, sure it may feel good but it’s something about getting a deep stroke of passionate aggressive love that keeps lips so moist and throbbing. I think that ladies go to woman more so because of the emotion side them for the sex. Most of the time it the lack of affection mentally from a man that turns woman to even go to a females direction. No matter what Lesbians say I know they crave that manly tool and numb chucks every ones and a while. Woman just can’t do a men’s job as great as men. Nevertheless why would you want to knock boots with someone who has the same treats as you? You got to which up a little. I know it must get old at some point? And let not get to the strap on’s… I mean ladies we deserve the real think. You don’t have to love men but at least appreciate the good sex that a selected few can achieve. My question is can woman really be all that great sexually?….I don’t think so. Ladies if you really want a peek at both worlds just do a threesome. Life is short live a little! Why have limitations? You know who you are and nothings wrong with exploring. Just remember to always be a lady! Lol. Hell I know my man will have the time of his life. The key is to put it down in bed and open up your mind and your man will never leave. You got to keep sex interesting simple as that. In addition to other little things that women run men away with (I’ll save that till next time). Now as far as being a lesbian, I’ll pass; but a curious mind can wonder… Ladies don’t try to front like the thought never crossed your mind.

Ackapella ( An Artist)

A paper Assignment of someone in my life that I feel is phenomenal(Up coming Artist and Producer) ;)



"Prosperous is His Name"

These days it is hard to find a man who is so prosperous and passionate in life. This world which we live in is filled with sin that most of us aren't even strong enough to fight. It is as if we as a people let the weight of the world bring us and keep us down, but for one man that I know, life's battles are his motivation and the foundation of his success. Through all his trials and tribulations that are forever stained in his history, this gentleman, Christopher Alexander O'Neal Barnes Gayle (my boyfriend), is the most prosperous friend, brother, son and soul mate I know. All his life he has done good for people, although never having any time for himself, but through it all he has managed to be prosperous in life, music, and our relationship.

Life is something that we all live and die for; if your life is not in order, then how can he or she know which path to take towards their dreams? A man like Christopher has shown me the importance of having your life together before you can affect the world and accomplish your dreams. It is amazing to see and hear this coming from a man who had parents jumping in and out of his life, leaving him no choice but to face the world alone. He is the type of man that even if it was his last result; he would not depend on another to hold his weight. I can't blame him, especially when the people you put all your fate in (family) seems to not even give you the time or day(they're just to busy for their kids) and because of this at the age of eighteen he had a car, house, job, production company, attended college and had his career goals all figured out. I feel that's amazing, considering most eighteen year old men are behind bars, killed, or just sitting around being of no value to this world let alone their own lives. Christopher's philosophy behind this is, "When you know your s**t and can hold your own no one can stop you or tell you otherwise. Humans have no limitations; it's just some apply themselves more than others and that's what determines one's success." Everything this man as ever owned and has, he has worked for, never choosing the easy way out. His drive is what attracted me the most to him. I feel having an undying passion for what he loves, is what keeps him moving ahead to big and better things in life. When you know who you are and what you want by staying true to self, you will do nothing but prosper and his first love (music) is his inspiration for triumph, thriving to be nothing but the best which will forever lead him to success.

To some music is just a melody, but to Christopher it is his life; a work of art that has so much meaning and history behind it. Music has lost its true value; as Nas would say (a hip hop Artist) "Hip Hop is dead." It is hard to distinguish whether it is talent I hear when I listen to the radio or a bunch of clamor. I use to feel that there was no hope left for the music world within the black community, but then I met Chris all so known as Ackapella (his name as an artist) the preserver of it all. Not only is his music phenomenally breath taking and soul captivating it is the passion that comes from him that makes the beauty of it feel so alive; he is music. I feel passion is what most musicians are missing. When it comes to music Ackapella excels in all categories from being an artist, producer, song writer, and musician. He has paved his own path to success with in the music industry with his determination and will power. I remember when I first met him; he had a studio set up in the corner of his room where he recorded, mixed and mastered tracks then sent them off to different organizations. To this day I know he feels as if I thought his studio was humorous but I was just dumbfounded by the thought of him having a studio in his room (I have never seen that before). In the end, all of his hard work and late nights paid off; now record labels want him as their in house producer, his songs are being played on the radio; he is appearing on MTV shows and performing at numerous events with other artist. He is in high demand with in his community and continues to expand through his networking and self promotion. Ackapella is now in the process of making his first album "Minority Report" produced by his own company "Kant Looze Producktions" He is only nineteen with an intellect of a forty year old. What makes him so different then most musicians in the music industry is that he does not let society, groupies and fame ruin his name and what he stands for. What good is it if you gain the world and loose your soul? He is a go getter, risk taker and a man of his word. Most people sit around and wait for things to come to them, but Ackapella does it all on his own. Why have others do what you can do for your self? He has persistence, confidence, and intelligence, which are the characteristics that a man who is prosperous should have.

Nevertheless, finding someone who completes you, and makes you feel as if they are a splitting image of god's creation for you is a wonderful blessing. It's like I see my whole future and dreams through his eyes. It's as if his seen what I've seen and so much more. Christopher has helped me realize what it means to be in love with someone then to just love them. No relationship is perfect but he has shown me how important a woman and a man can be to each other with fate, understanding and patience. At times when life and people where against our relationship and I was alone Chris would do everything in his power to keep us together, even if it meant putting his dreams on hold. If I was not straight then he wasn't; my life was his life, so at my time of need he put his music career on hold in Atlanta and moved up to Tallahassee Fl for me (us). While everyone was off living their life he put his aside to help me back on my feet. I felt it was God giving me the opportunity to experience what it feels like to have a strong bond between a woman and a man. It was the struggles that I thought would destroy us but it only brought us closer. He is a man with strong fate. Chris told me once, "that if you know instead of hoping, then what you believe and want will be." Chris's fate is one reason why our relationship continues to flourish. No man has ever put me first before his life besides my father and because of that I knew right then Chris is all I ever want and more. Till this day he finds ways to amaze me. I'm never going to forget how determined he was to keep the nourishment of our relationship intact, by letting me use the only car he had so I could get around and visit him in Atlanta. This man hustled night and day to get another car so that we could see one another and accomplish our dreams. I remember driving from dealer to dealer and apply for loan after loan with him. Things didn't work out in our favor but some way some how Christopher found away and succeeded in keeping out relationship strong. It's not that man are all the same, it's that we as woman sometimes fail to see the goodness and agonize about factors in life that should be left in Gods hands, which leads me to believe is it really the men or woman's insecurities?

It is the beauty of life that I live for and that's what I see in Christopher Alexander O'Neal Gayle Barnes. Saying that this man is a male protagonist would be an understatement, he is the manifestation of what a prosperous man should, is and will be. Through his faith, persistence, confidence and magnetism he has proven and won his battles. We should not use or past for the reasons we fail and can't fly free, for this man is living proof that no matter how far beneath the earth you've been obscured and stepped upon, you can uproot your self with hard work and be as fruitful as the next. Prosperous is His Name. He possesses all the riches in the world through his mind, body and soul.

More Poetry

I'm A Woman

I'm a woman look in to my eyes
Do you see fear? Intimidation?
No! What you see is strength, appealing education and my soul
I'm the woman you don't want me to be
But I shall succeed!
I'm not a follower, but a stone cold leader.
I will soar like an eagle to the highest heights
You can't bring me down
You can't hold me back
Because I'm strong!
I'm A Woman!



“In Tune with me”

You sooth me and move me/ you're in tune with me/ as I listen to you...you take me where I want to be. I feel as if you seen and felt the images in my mind and the sentimental things I see to find.

With you I always find peace. It's as if the art of you was made especially for me. I embrace your artistry and air; which I breathe because you are my vital necessity.

You enervate stimulate exalt and enliven me. It's as if we were meant to be.

Through conception my mother made sure we linked. You became my stimulation and intriguing to my mind; as you flowed with each note created...making my reality vivacious.

I soon became entwine with your sessions/witnessing the birth of your greatest creations. It was then I realized that with you its' easier to fly.. You are my everything; The part of my life which keeps me sane; the reason why my whole mentality has changed.

With you I understand...because you understand me. No other can express and know my essence without words like you.

I let the sound of you trickle through me. No need for words...your pulsations completes me.

I keep an open heart and ear for only you/ so you can be and know my every thing.

Muzick is my medicine and get away; to what will be my forever and ever...Happiness (please stay)



"This Life of Sin"

A heavenly creation in a formation of its own existents… from darkness, blessed into a world of sin; where most humans think nothing of self and allow the world to corrupt their minds.
Tell me...Where is the blessing in that? When your first breath is among greed, vanity, lies, and war...
I thought we as a people would live in unity? Did God intend for all this Violence? (No need to answer, just listen to the unspoken words held beneath the my tongue) It was said that every life is predetermined...So are we living our way or the way God intended? And where is the soul of a man if he can't define his essence...or stand out amongst his own crowd?
The struggles, pain, and lessons that are meant to be learned and endured...are they the purpose of our lives? To live... Then die...and in the end what is really gained. There's a reason for life beyond the human psyche. Do we really know what we think...or is it pre-recorded?
Everyone wants to be special, unique, and have a weight of depth like no other...because no one wants to be the same; but how come in Gods eyes no person is higher then the other? So is there such thing as an extraordinary human being? Or is it our fear of being average that leads us to believe? It's possible we all can be...it's just some limit their own abilities and never reach their full capacity.
So how is one living life when they haven't mastered their soul? And was it meant for us to know? Maybe we've already lived...now looking back on our lives. Studying our identity, understanding our mistakes and finally seeing the clues we've missed; Unable to change, for what would be the point? Only one life to live; maybe death is the way to understanding "This life of sin."
Angel S. Young (copy right 2007)

Love and Relationships (poetry)

"Destroyed by the nourishment of Love"

I have a confession...I'm a officially an addict....to most that's a bad thing; but believe me when I say I'm innocent; I'm a victim of its schemes. I don't know how I became a prisoner of it's substance...I would have never inhaled, injected, or connected with anything that I knew would be harmful to me....there was no warning, no signs or caution to stop me from falling for it's affection... it had me feeling like I was living a dream. Everyone talks about it; as if it's the best thing. They say once you've found and felt it then your life is finally complete...maybe for a moment it may seem cause this addiction went away as soon as it came to me... why live in a fantasy? such naive minds...that's what I turned out to be. I always thought that as bad as I needed this addiction; it would need
me, but soon after it's moments of making me feel free, lifting me high as if I was forever going to be on cloud nine...it disappeared and lovelorn (forsaken) me; Back to reality hitting rock bottom. No longer standing on solid ground... feeling so low; I was a fool to think this would forever be apart of me. I have sight but no vision now; unable to make out what was before me. What is there to see if every thing is tainted so blurry? It should have been a drug...maybe ecstasy; since it swept me off my feet. I couldn't live without it; It took control and became the death of my deprived soul. Leaving me love sick yearning to hear it's seductive, and sensual music. It's hard to let go when it took so much away from me; if i lose it then I've lost apart of me. My every move was made from the way it affected me. It was my world I let it lived within me and became one with thee. Now I'm put in rehab; struggling to survive my addiction for love... I don't want to be its addict. Never will I look at it the same... What once nourished me simply destroyed me; I'm bruised by the though and sound of its name. ..forgiving I will be; all ways remembering the good times the lessons that were conceived, but never forgetting the pain this fatal addiction contains. No longer will it live with in me...outside it where it will remain. A cold heart will only take away my warmth. I don't need anything that breaks the key to my heart. So why should I continue to hold its broken pieces within my hand and say I love it?




“Failure of love and Relationships”

Some think that love is what makes and determines the true essence and depth of ones relationship...But in my eyes love alone can not be trusted....

It is the lack and misunderstanding of friendship, which I feel causes most relationships and marriages to fall. How can you truly love someone if you never took the time to except them as a friend and know their soul and history?

A lot of times the desire and greed for love can blind and destroy its reality... It can make you selfish and Vulnerable to the point where you wish you could control it, but love can't be controlled; for if so it will fall.

Love takes time it is built through the trial of a woman and a man, in hope to reach "I DO"...it is not perfect nor should it be penalized or blamed for the pain which is self created in ones heart. It is ones emotions that destroy a person not the act of a woman or man. Everyone controls their own happiness. So who’s to blame if it's lost? (You)

Love is understanding, patient, forgiving, free, and one of its' own fulfill ness. Which all can be understood through the mastering of friendship; which most of us lack.

One thing that love should not accept is disrespect, but there's a difference between disrespect and disagreeing with ones actions. There will be lies, struggles, and heart breaks. Not to say this is right, but what makes it wrong? Can you find it in the bible? And is there a ring on your hand? Love is a battle testing ones strength.

Sometimes it takes a little dirt for one to know the beauty of love. So once you plant your seed stand by its side while it grows.

Just because one is in a relationship does not mean there is love. So if you can'nt take all that comes with the trial of your relationship; then let it go. Never blame love for pain that you can control.

If a married man or woman can cheat under the vows of GOD, then put nothing pass your own. Remain free, communicate and establish the art of friendship and you'll see love will come easier and relationships will last forever.

Don't let your emotions destroy the process of love and don't try to fall in love with love if you have not fallen in love with its friendship. ;)


MAKING LOVE TO HER MENTALLY

Stimulating her mind, caressing her inner psyche, and securing her thoughts; giving her a reason to believe that there is still fate for her love story to succeed...
Convincing herself hat with time it will unfold and blossom into a beautiful black rose...As you spoon feed her words that nurture her conscious; giving her hope and understanding. That one day will be her reality...
Forever embedding what she feels is true love, because in her mind you can't amount to nothing less; and from the floetry ones words it seems one feels the same.
You say," Actions speak louder than words." But words over power ones actions. Having the strength to manipulate the mind and secure ones comfort to continue to confide...blanketing the skull from outside chemicals that may make tainted love.
All you have to say is "I love you more"....having the ability to control every emotion that her heart beats for....If the mind doesn't believe it then the feeling is nonexistent. Leaving the heart empty/numb; Powerless to feel or act upon love that isn't there.
It is hope that keeps most of us alive; and hope is why you’re still alive within her hopeless mind. Having her screaming out for your love...wanting more as each word rolls down your deceitful tough. Back and forth the conversation goes keeping that chemistry of romance aboard. With you on top and her below suppressing her with misleading words....expressions of ecstasy; Giving her no option....but to keep falling and becoming merciful to thee.
You’re all she can hope for again and again...as you kiss her with each motion from your lips; sending sweet messages through her ear and cellular devise. That process within her mind...moving down her spine; releasing an orgasm of clarity through each delicate layer vibrating through her soul...absorbing all the embrace you give to her intellect.
A feeling of lovers’ love that will never fade away if you continue to nourish and make love to her mentally; Giving her visions to one day recreate.
It doesn't matter that you care and always will be there for me; because it's not love we have if you’re mentally making love to another females mind.

Lady Bug Magazine (Over rated love)

“Over- rated Love”

A heart… The sweet romantic and everlasting symbol representing what ever woman desires (love). Yes I admit I’ve been bamboozled by the thought of love and so has half of this world’s population of woman. When it comes to that four letter word ladies we become weak. I think we put more into it then what’s needed. What woman doesn’t want to be lifted off their feet and have that passionate sweet fuck fuck love everyday and come home to a drama free man? But honestly what in life really is obstacle free. We live in a world known as life and with that comes’ pain and ups and downs so really what makes love any different? Nothing! Love is just an emotion that some how we as ladies flipped to be some perfect human that make no mistakes. It’s not a word that was meant to be defined as a woman’s wants and demanding needs. Women think that if you love me then you won’t cheat or lie. But we are all humans and a relationship is a trial meant to go through error to make it to “I do.” Now who’s the judge of what love would or would not do? And are we as ladies as perfect as the men that we seek to find?

Woman try so hard to mold men into what they perceive love should be that they distort it’s natural essence and lose it within themselves; therefore making it unreachable forming self created pain.

It is loves imperfections that in my eyes make love so perfect. The fact that love can be free but yet understanding supportive and have friendship is really what matters.

Love has officially become an over-rated word to represent the deepest bond between a woman and a man… How deep can love really be? And if that all that two people need to last? We as woman must think about that. We preach so much about how we are independent and strong but yet we become so weak and vulnerable; blaming love and men for all of out tears. Is it really love woman should want? What ever happen to wanting that soul mate which takes more than love to last? You can love someone but that doesn’t mean they are your soul mate. Is what ever woman wants, something they lack within themselves?



Angel S. Young

The Lady Bug Magazine (Virginia Beach) www.ladybugonline.net!

Julian Peterson (NFL Player)

Julian Peterson
“The freak”


Could he be the next Lawrence Taylor? Well he is not far behind this great ledge’s relentless foot steps. Born in the suburbs of Temple Hill Maryland “X”, “The Freak” formally known as Julian Peterson, dominates the football fields with his astonishing plays and exceptional speed. Peterson a former player for the San Francisco 49ers (2000-2005) has made his presents known as one of the top linebackers in the NFL to play for the Seattle Seahawks.
An athlete such as him is rare to come across; with such a well rounded disposition Peterson is a do it all player. His asset from being an effective pass defender to handling the tight ends bring so much victory to the Seattle Seahawks. Peterson brings has brought and brings great range, power and versatility to his former team the San Francisco 49ers and the Seattle Seahawks. As a 49er he was known for his consistent ability to make plays and rush the passer. Peterson has played almost every position for the Seahawks and has captivated his team and fans with outstanding performances in every position played.
Peterson has is wife Aimee Peterson, Agent Kevin Poston and his father Jake Peterson for their support and growth towards his endowed athleticism. As his dad once told him, “Never be good at just one thing. You can always be successful in life if you’re well-rounded.” And he took that advice and become an NFL star. Peterson finished off his 2007 season with once again improving stats. He had 74 tackles with 63 solo, 9.5 sacks, 4 forced fumbles, two interceptions and 3 passes.
With Petersons ambition, hunger and determination on the field and for the game; he may just become the next Hall of Fame American football player like legendary L.T (Lawrence Taylor). Taylor changed the way of how the game has been played and now Peterson is making his way to following his foot steps.

Angel Young (March 2008)
Article written for Pinnacle Public Relations Groups LLC (Atlanta GA) www.myspace.com/Pinnaclepublicrelationsgroup

"Hip Hop is More than Music"

Feature written for Hip Hop Permier Magazine (Mid-South publishing Group, LLC) Atlanta GA

“Hip Hop is more than music”

A melody formed and expressed through voices and instruments creating the art of music; a foundation of which Hip-Hop was born but not limited to; Dj Kool Herc who is originally from Bronx is believed to be the initiator of Hip-Hop and it's rhymes. He was in love with break beats and D-jing; a section within a song where the beat would stop. Herc was all about the bass and percussion in music which was apart of his Jamaican culture. When you think of Hip-Hop, you probably just think of music, but Hip-Hop is more than that; Hip-hop is a feeling, expression of ones style, poetry, music, dance and art. It is a culture which uplifts the black communities through its message.

From graffiti, break dancing beat boxing, spoken word, and ones character, Hip-Hop is a language among the African American culture. A story of expressions told through all these element of creativity. Hip-Hop is the freedom of ones soul connected to the history of ones ancestors, which has been embedded into the urban youth and uplifted through the passion of words and music. It is a movement and life style and swag; The birth of black culture that was intended to send out empowering messages of our reality, miracles,struggles and success.

Unfortunately, in today's society the true essence of Hip-Hop has been tainted and commercialized. It turned from being something meaningful to just a sound to bob your head to. If we as a people have forgotten the history of Hip-Hop then we've forgotten our own culture…lost within ourselves. We allow society to brain wash us and turn the beauty of Hip-Hop into the Stereotypes of our race. Hip-Hop is positive; it is not degrading or violent. It is what brought us together, becoming a tool which help educate through the depth of an artist lyrical massage.

Hip-Hop is an art, a talent that can only be manifest through the pure love of its history. There is a difference between a rapper and an artist; Artist is innovative, Emcees, complex and cultural like the legends such as Rakim, Big Daddy Kane and KRS-One. They can direct the audience with their voice and crush the challenger with their lyrics. Rappers in the other had are one hit song producers then forgotten, they're followers with no originality or identity; and in my book real Hip-Hop is produced by Artist.

Hip-Hop is a level of respect a talent that is performed not just written. It is all about perceiving ones culture not changing the true essence of its foundation. Hip-hop is soul, it's the expressions of ones mind and body, a feeling that will live on pass the worlds expressions. Hip-Hop isn't just music it's culture, style, a movement for our young legacies to carry on. Hip-Hop is much more than you and I.

Angel Young (November 2007)